This Sin

Is this sin a feeling within

Is it truth or dare

To know yourself

To know that sultry stare

Will you be cast out

Among the low and degraded

When everything you had given

Was your all that was elated

Do you know who you are

Or where your boundaries once lay

Are you willing to give in

Before night turns to day

Have you gazed at the aura  

Under the spell of a soft sashay

Of pear-shaped hips so perfect

Upon where you’ve seen the gentle sway

Does your chest catch your breath

From seeing curves expertly sloped

Does the flesh of the back amaze

Even more than you once hoped

Is it alright to feel

Supple skin lovingly cared for

Embracing each tiny sinew

Needing not just now but more

Are you emboldened by a smile

Shy cheeks dimpled gently

Is there anything less than light

Behind dark eyes raised intently

Can you imagine a reason

For which to deny your certainty

Should you leave these questions unanswered

Or embrace all with breathless temerity

Fearful

So much fear

Lurking darkly in the soul

Strength always was present

yet could not have shone through.

One look was only needed

To quell silent questions

When pain slowly crept in

and burrowed in so deep.

Each night, despair gave itself life

Each day was scarcely lived

Clouded memories barely lasted

yet fear is remembered years later.

There was no truth,

Only perpetuations of variance

Honor knew nothing of that life

and the spirit died each day.

Life was stolen in that time

Comfort no longer had a home

Security fell away to the dark

yet hope tried to survive.

War was fought within the self

Questioned how much can one stand

Rumblings of panic flooded quickly

and clarity burned through all.

There could be no great death

This was not a life lived freely

Facades crumbled to earthen cinders

yet time still needed to prevail.

Years later, the air breathes

Eyes bespeak freedom gained

Wastes of fear long gave way

and each dawn starts anew.

In a Lifetime

Gone now

though never ever there

But there it was in one moment,

Naked feet walking in dewy grass.

Warmth in the sky

Heat everywhere and yet nowhere

But there were the smiles,

The blinding light of the lips could last forever.

There is no pulse, no breath

No minutes or day

But there was a lifetime once,

Lived only by the nights of last.

Now past never revisits

Scenes played out but never lived

But sorrow lost its home,

Contentment presses in eager to shine.